『Talk』Rest in Peace, Ryan

Hello guys. 

I have a very serious topic that I would like to talk about today. 

I'll be addressing depression and suicide. I strongly recommend you all to read this.

Many of you have probably heard about it hundreds and hundreds of times already. However, watching a mischievous and playful friend succumb into depression so deep that it led to suicide emotionally struck me. 

Today, just an hour ago, my friend Ryan Walden died from an attempted suicide. 

He was rushed to the hospital this morning, but it was too late.

Ryan, a freshman like me, was the most clever and respectful person I've ever met. He was only 14, his birthday only a few months away from now. 

Most importantly, he's a person I've spent four years with. He is a child of loving parents and brothers. He is a friend to many. 

We have all been impacted by his passing. 

I am crying as I'm typing this. I still can't believe that the boy I saw just a week ago, the boy who I helped with homework, the boy who say next to me, is now gone. 

Forever. 

There will always be an empty seat next to me, as if almost waiting for him to come in one day so everything would be normal again. 

But it's won't. 

Death is irreversible. To realize he was hiding his depression, to realize I didn't notice; I feel guilty. 

Maybe I could've done something. 

Maybe I could've prevented this even if it was just one little action, such as going to visit him or asking to hang out. 

Depression is serious. As someone who went though it before, I can truthfully tell you that there are more types of depression than there are different types of snowflakes. 

Depression can lable many emotions. I know many of you mean well when you say, "I know how you feel." 

When you're that deep in depression, however, no one wants to hear that. 

Just be there for them. 

Reach out to them. 

Let them know you're thinking about them. 

Let them know you care. 

 

I beg of anyone who has difficultly staying in this world to talk to someone you trust. 

Anyone. 

Hotlines, family, 911, etc. 

The impact you leave and the life that you abandon is impossible to reverse. 

Life is beautiful. 

Rest in peace, Ryan. 

-Gin

『Talk』Pictures from Katsucon and WIP Cosplays

SO.

A SUPER.

SUPER.

LONG OVER DUE (AND PHOTO HEAVY) POST. HAHA

I'm so sorry.

//lies on side

whyislifesobusy

Anyways! So, I went to Katuscon (two months ago) and boy, was it great! *A*

I got a lot of really nice photos from my photographers. <3 (They were all amazing! I only knew one of them personally because of a previous photoshoot with her, but the other two were super friendly and really made me feel at ease. It's always scary finding new photographers! ;;;;)

Here are some of my favorites!

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SNSD Ahri - League of Legends

Photos taken by Shipszer Photography/Cosplay

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Photos taken by KG Photography

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Photos taken by WongTwoThree Cosplay & Photography

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Kuriyama Mirai [Maid and Idol Outfit] - Kyokai no Kanata (Beyond the Boundary)
My friend Miyu as Idol Miral and myself as Maid Mirai!

Photos taken by WongTwoThree Cosplay & Photography

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I really didn't have a lot of cosplays this con. HAHA
Though I'm working on a few for Otakon that I'm pretty excited about!
Here are some of my WIPs:

Elsa - Frozen (WIP)

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Winter Wonder Poro - League of Legends (WIP)

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Syndra - League of Legends (WIP)

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Female Haruka - Free! (WIP)

Yes, I am standing in snow in a swimsuit.

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OK WHOOT.
PICTURES GALORE. *A*
It's would be amazing if you guys could check out my Facebook page, PandaGin! I upload most of my cosplay progresses on there, plus, I give occasional tips! 8D
Thank you so much for reading...?
Look at pictures? LOL

I will try to get some beauty things out this weekend! Love you guys!

I hope you have an amazing day! <3

☆ gin ★

『Tutorial』Mr. Mr Collaboration: Yuri

Gah! Look at me slowly dying off the face of the blogging world. AHAHCRIES-

I'm so sorry for being so inactive for the past...month? 2 months? LOL

I promise I'll be back and better than ever once all my musicals are finished. Lately, I've been leaving the house at 3PM and returning at 12AM. Praise the lord our grading period is over (though I did get one B from over stressing and lack of sleep. I wish my teacher would bump it to on A. :'< I had a 89.4%. ;;;;;)

Anyways, that Katsucon Post. 

SOON.

I'll also probably be posting WIP cosplays (such as my Elsa)! I've been sewing like a mad man trying to get everything done before the convention in summer.

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Okok, onto the tutorial!

So the LOVELY Charmaine asked me if I would like to do this collab with her! Coincidentally, I had heard the song a day back and was already deciding to do a make up inspired look of the one of the members! Since I wasn't too picky, I just took whoever was left, which was Yuri. <3

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To start, we're going to clean and apply foundation. I'm using Skin79's Orange BB cream.

After properly setting the foundation, apply a powder to set. Of course, using my favorite Rimmel Transparent "Stay Matt" Pressed Powder.

Yuri's brows are really defined and long. I used Fairy Girl's Eyebrow Pencil to achieve it.

Take a dark brown and apply it around the rims of the eyes. The brown I'm using here is Jordana Cosmetic's Eyeshadow in Mr. Brown.



Using a opaque black liner, I lined my top lid from my water duct to half a centimeter from the edge. NYX's Retractable Eyeliner is great for this!




I noticed that Yuri has a sharp curve on her eyeliner. However, I didn't want to make it too edgy so my eyes didn't look like they were drooping. By smudging Maybelline's Lasting Drama Gel Liner onto the corners and below the eye, it creates an even and grown up look.



Touch up other parts, curl those lashes, and apply mascara! The mascara I used is Covergirl's Volume Exact Mascara, still the best one I've encountered.

Lips are very important in this look. I noticed how Yuri's lips are extremely round. To recreate this, I first applied a layer of Tony Moly's Lipstain in Cherry. After it had absorbed and was compleatly dry, I applied NYX's Cream Lip Color is Sweetheart. Using the power of highlights and shadows, it made it seem as my lips were fuller. 

Here are all the product I used to create...

This look.

And now, the Yuri look is complete!

Thank you once again for our amazing host, Charmaine, for leading this amazing collaboration. I'm honored I got to take part of it! *^*

Check out the other girls too!

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Taeyeon ~ Charmaine

(charrmyn.blogspot.com)

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Jessica ~ Mary

(nokchajjang.blogspot.com)

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Sooyoung ~ Mindy

(mymychen.blogspot.com)

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Tiffay ~ Fifi

(beautifyinglifee.blogspot.com)

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Hyoyeon ~ Misa 

(misaraisu.com)

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Sunny ~ Yomi 

(gwiyomistyle.net)

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Yoona ~ Bella 

(everythingaboutbella.blogspot.com)

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Seohyun ~  Aimee 

(chocobunnii13.blogspot.com)

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Thank you so much for reading! I hope you all have a great day. <3

☆ gin ★